Imposter's Syndrome

The Background

You are very good,

Oh no, I am just ok,

You are truly gifted,

No no I just try,

You cook so well,

Oh, I just get by,

You are so hardworking,

I just do my duty,

You are so smart,

Oh really, you think so, how nice,

Here’s your raise,

Oh, thank you (but do I deserve so much)

You wake up at 5 every day? 

Oh, I am used to it now, no big deal,

You have lovely hair,

I wish I could let it down,

Wow! You can run a 5K,

You can do it too,

You are so cheerful,

You should ask my family. 

You are very good,

Thank you,

You are truly gifted,

So, kind of you,

You cook so well,

Thank you,

You are so hardworking,

Thank you,

You are so smart,

Thank you,

Here’s your raise,

Thank you, I do deserve it,

You wake up at 5 every day? 

Yes, every single day,

You have lovely hair,

Thank you, I shall let them down,

Wow! You can run a 5K,

Yes, I can 

You are so cheerful,

Why, thank you, you are so kind.

The Imposter's Syndrome

Why does my mind question me so? 

Oh, why won’t it believe in itself, 

Time has proven it wrong again and again,

I can do it too,

But why won’t it rest on its laurels,

And want to do more and more,

Prove itself again and again,

When will it know peace,

Why can’t it just be, 

Why won’t it allow me to let down my hair,

Oh, why does it beat me up so,

Why does it drive me to despair,

Oh, why won’t it show any kindness to me,

When it’s so kind to others,

Why does it expect so much, 

And give so little to me,

Why won’t it take a compliment,

But believe a slight immediately,

Why does it push me to do better, 

And keep poking me from within,

Why does it focus on the undone,

And not what’s done,

Why does it tell me what I don’t know,

Rather than all the things that I do know,

Most times I listen to it,

But, many a times, I refuse to do so,

I won’t let the worthlessness creep in,

I refuse to believe it,

I make the most of what I have,

I will believe when someone gives me a compliment,

I have done it before and I will do it again,

I have little,

But that’s enough for me,

I won’t let the imposter within control me,

I refuse to believe the imposter,

By and by I will push the imposter away,

I am good as I am, 

I believe in me.