I'm No More A Soul

I hope, you are doing great,

Since we are on a break,

Couldn't say, I still love you,

But there is something wanna say straight.

I know you won’t guilt,

I hooked up,

With a beautiful girl,

Which felt better than masturbate.

Cause there was something you said,

Which was worst than freindzoning,

That night I wanted to convey you everything,

But you were vanished the morning.

I still remember,

Our first conversation,

Where you were at the garden,

And I was stalking you from the road divider.

I can't forget your lovely words,

Which you told me,

But when I came closer,

This other guy acted as a barrier.

You said, I'm your choice,

But the way you hold this guy,

I still doubt,

Was that your heart's voice.

I was jealous,

You said it's normal,

We are in an open relationship,

After that I'm just a puppet dancing on your lips.

I can't that evening,

I was standing at your doorstep,

With roses blooming,

You open the door with a guy kissing,

I still think, "Are we still dating"?

I thought by dating you,

My future will be bright,

But whenever I tried to spend some time,

You always thought me to swipe right.

I know it’s been long years,

I don't know when our break expires,

I am just fulfilling people's sex desires,

To maintain my smile have smothered my tears.

Do you remember?

That freezy night rides,

When I held your hand,

And both rested in cold sand.

We swayed together,

On the music of night crawler,

Your were absorbing me,

But now your fragrance of love is lost.

My 2017 new year,

Was full of horror films,

I held you tight,

Just because of my fear.

I don't know,

Why I am conveying,

But I am scared,

If someone else will do the same.'

I know I don't pick up your calls,

I have been introduced to different skin, figure, and clubs,

I have met new people,

Which has made me a thrusting dummy,

I have lost all your touch,

Now roses and cards,

Has been replaced by condoms and lubes,

And now, I'm no more a soul.