Help Me. Remind Me Why I'm Here.

Help me. Remind me why I am here.

In this abyss of guilt

That goes as deep as his love for me

A love that is unquestionable

Still not enough to bury my unsettling desire of 

Someone who doesn't makes me feel bounded

Someone who fits into my idea of love

Except that this love isn't unquestionable

That I doubt it as much as I doubt myself

Still, my conscience go on throttling all the right things 

Letting my infidelity take over 

So I continue to stab him 

He who doesn't know 

That as far as he can go for love I've 

Already reached there with betrayal

And I stand there shouting 

Help me. Remind me why I'm here.