Habit

It controls her

She can't stop it

It's a constant battle

She can't drop it

It has become a habit

She can't quit

It's taking over her body

Bit by bit

The scars fade

But the memories don't

She wants them to leave

But they refuse. They won't

It's an ongoing battle.

It's a fight she never wins

It's a constant struggle

It's a war that never ends

It's her sweet escape

It gets her lost in her place

She gets to control the pain

As her adrenaline starts to race

She grabs it off the dresser

As a tear falls from her cheek

She presses even harder

Reminding herself not to shriek

No one understands

No one ever will

This habit now controls her

As the world around her stands still

But now the room is spinning

Her head is getting light

She falls back in her bed

Refusing to put up a fight

She takes one last breath as she turns out the lights

Then she closes her eyes as she calls it a night

No one ever understands my scars.