FORGOT TO REMEMBER!

I forgot what I should remember, 

I remember what I should forget. 

The moments that I hold on dearly, 

Are the ones that I do regret. 

For if that never happened, 

If I never felt

The way I felt for you 

You never would matter 

As a cloud that was just passing through. 

It was that smile 

The first time I saw it.

I knew,

I wanted to see it

For the rest of my life. 

But it didn't happen. 

If I could make one wish 

I would wish to go back to

Before us,

Before you, 

Before the fire.

Which consumed me

And left me here.

Alone,

Burned, 

To the ground. 

Wallowing in the ashes 

Searching for you 

That used to be.