Forget

It’s been so long, I forget what it’s like. We’ve been apart for too long, sometimes I wonder if it was all a dream. Did we ever look at each other like nothing else existed around us? Did we really feel loved through each other’s touch? Did I really smile everyday with just the thought of you? I don’t remember. 

All this time I tried to forget, and now I can’t remember. I don’t remember the way your gaze felt when you looked at me and smiled like nothing was bad in this world. I don’t remember that soft touch of your fingers and the warm feeling of your arms around me. I don’t remember that happiness we felt just as we saw each other walk into a room. Did we really find all the love we needed as we sat side by side in a classroom?

All of it seems like the perfect dream. Is this feeling another way of holding on to you, or letting myself free?