Feeling Left Out

Do you know what it's like?

To feel all alone?

No mummy, no daddy,

No place to call home...

Nobody wants me,

Nobody cares.

Still, everybody sees me,

Everybody just stares.

They know about my life,

But they don't know it all.

I feel abandoned,

And I'm sure, one day I’ll fall.

My dad was never here,

Didn't want me, no doubt.

There was always fighting.

Then he moved out.

Dad hit Mom,

Mom hit Dad.

They are both twisted.

Yes, things are bad.

My mom was a drunk,

A drug addict, too.

Her boyfriend hit me,

And out the door, I flew.

My life isn't perfect.

It spirals down.

I'll refuse to show fear

When I move out of town.

I need a way out,

But there is no escape.

God, if you're listening,

Seriously, is this really my fate?

I don't know where I am.

I'm lost and all alone.

Can't you see me crying?

My heart is torn.

God, I need you.

Can you give me a family?

Give me a home,

Someone who'll love me for me?

I know it's a lot.

I will thank you for this.

I may not have a family,

But you made up for it with friends.

I love them all very much,

But you know it must end.

Everyone says that you love me.

Is that true?

Sometimes it doesn't seem like it.

I wonder if I should love you, too.

I don't know what I'm doing,

Who am I?

I don't know anything anymore.

It's all confusing.