Cherophobia
Cherophobia
In the silence of the darkness
Filled with thoughts, I wait for it to happen
Wobbly and unstable in blind awareness
And I think the ship has lost its captain
The heart pumps and thumps
Like an earthquake has come
The ship becomes a part of the sea of sorrow
As the biggest waterfall is yet to be followed
When the sky is filled with clarity and normality
I can still feel dark clouds hover above
I can still feel the winds versatility
Expecting for an unexpected storm to come
I interrogate myself on why I cannot
Cannot navigate me through such a clear path.
I wonder to myself why I can't wear a smile
That has not been marketed and bought by myself
I ask myself yet much more
Like, what is happiness?
Is it a state of mind?
Or an illusion of life?
But then again
I'm not living in my head
I'm not making it up to dread
For it is the reality
In conflict with my mentality
This is what we must accept in this world
Where only pain is felt