Between the Heart and Mind

I walk in silence louder than screams

a soul misplaced in forgotten dreams

my heart still hopes for hands to hold

but my mind? it whispers you’re getting old.

i talk to the mirror like it knows my pain

asking who i was before the shame

the face i wear is not my own

just borrowed pieces from all i’ve known

every thought is a war i cannot win

my heart says feel my mind says sin

love is unsafe

trust is a trap

you’re too much

you’ll never get back…

i shrink myself to make them stay

but lose more me with every day

this overthinking my second skin

a prison built quietly, deep within

i laugh too loud, then hate the sound

i search for light, but stay spellbound

they see a girl who smiles and tries

not the storm beneath her quiet eyes

my soul is aching to be found

not saved, not fixed just safe and sound

somewhere between the noise and still

between what i think and what i feel

i want to be loved as i unfold

not when i’m perfect when i’m cold

but while i’m healing, raw and bruised

still fighting battles i never choose

so here i stand, between wrong and right

between leave it or just hold it  tight

a lonely soul with a burning mind

and a heart too soft to leave behind.