Alone but not afraid

Well I'm back to the paper complaining,

But it's what I can do right now,

Because my mind's clouded, it's raining,

No I'm not crying, done with all that, I don't know how,

I became a stone cold piece of diamond,

Not by value or lustre, but by keeping strong in peace like a dove,

Talking to this thing doesn't help now, I'm stunned,

But it's what I can do right now,

Because expression to human is an act I've shunned,

I'm being burnt in conditions like an eggplant on a stove,

But it's what I've lived under, can't see through the smile,

Because I've stooped so low, I can see the whole wide world above,

I don't express much so at least you know that if I cry, the tears aren't of a crocodile,

It's just that, for longer than you know, I've been strong,

It's just that, for the fake smile I wear to be real, it's been a while,

But I'm strong enough, I've been left out for way too long,

I'm all by myself in this game and I will still win it and cut out,

Any other competition that tries to push me down, and I know I wouldn't be wrong,

But that's all that this poem is about,

Just know that I got me if you roll the dice and take the chance,

To go against me, you winning is a huge doubt.