A River's Vehemence

Gather did I, infinite thoughts

Harness did I a billion words

Emerged my soul into existence

From the plain world and the bleeding hearts

Kept my pace going

Not for the world to see

Not for the people to appreciate

But for me to understand

The pathos of being me

I was haunted and falsified

With raised words and spears

For the spreading hatred and the fears

For the chaos and confusion

Till it broke my resilience

And I wiped it with an ardor

I did not know I had

The eyes of others see my journey

The pebbles smoothed, and the lands nourished

Stories that unfold with my testimony

Feelings expressed with mere looks

I stand witness to history

Explaining like a philosopher

Penning like a poet

Uttering like the speaker, reaching absorbent minds

What a smile, a thousand words have conveyed

Sometimes I see a tear, mixing with my waters

A mother giving up hope, surrendering to hunger

A grown son, gone in a heartbeat

As death smiles upon them, promising everlasting peace

Anger surges through my veins

The pain of not being understood is like a scar

I see the fragmented faults

Dirtying my body and soul

Reminding me of each wound like a burning flame

And not coming together upon confronting the storm

I flow for centuries gone and yet to come

I want to be remembered with the softness

Of the way, I want to see the world

A world where words uttered are meant to heal

Where hearts are not for breaking but giving

Where the eyes are wonder struck

With the beauty of a soul

When the mask is not judged

And the internal being is valued

When the ego does not have the power

To seamlessly burn the truth

Where there is consideration

And the innocence of children

Is not turned to dismay

Where love is not a coin with two faces

I know I have fear, Yet I want to believe in hope

With a fierceness that my heart upholds

When I see a bird, with feathers broke

Still trying to fly, Fighting and surviving

With a will that makes me cry