Memories

These days are the ones I actually feared...losing her was the worst thing I would have ever imagined. Every time I sleep her apparition wakes me up asking me to not leave her alone in this mean world, every time I indulge myself in other activities..her thoughts bind me to the world I have created for her...

Even breathing without her is unendurable now..how did she become so much important to me..that it bothers me every single second of my life..if only that person should have given me her soul to take care of..now the person is my need...You were the mirror which helped me to tide up every day...

I have promised that I will never leave and will come in the direction in which that person resided. My desires have come to the extent that I would have even fought the world for her..that person has now become my habit...The world in which only both of us existed, where we showered love upon ourselves was my dream...When I think of the situations that put us apart, I always conclude that it would have been my fault that made me alone at this very moment.

The dilemma of my guilt winds me up... making me a small boy again. When I was a kid...I used to keep my things safely from others so that it accompanies me till my death...but even they disappeared, broke or went missing. I have learned one thing thorough it is that every person you care of or love the most leaves you.. either the situations or your own behavior make them do so...

I have now accepted the fact that it was destiny that separated us...we might meet at some point in the future but the love and affection will not remain the same..the care for her which I am feeling right now...the possession which I wanted to take care of, the beauty which I have been adoring till now....all these dreams which I had ...will not remain the same.

But one thing will remain with me forever are the memories about her.. whenever I see it thorough my brain...It transfers me to the same moment which I have earned... just wanna live my rest of the life in these only...they are my possession.