An Obsession I Carry Along

I was asked to write something about an influential woman I admire in my life. Well, I cannot agree that there isn't even single person I look upto every morning. There is this one lady I am so crazy about. She never fails to amaze me with her lifestyle. Her flaws, the wrong path she chooses, those mistakes she does when she trembles are very similar to those any woman does. But the way she wants or feels an urge to grab things back in a hold and set things right is what I am very proud of this young lady.

I always wonder one thing when asked to confess about a role model or a person I look forward to, and that is, why are most of us into this preconception that these role models should be flawless? Why do we want to abide to a fact that only their success should charm us but not the troublesome,tiring and strenuous phases they had to undergo to make up to that top of a ladder?

Interestingly,in this piece of writing I want to throw light on all these difficult and few odd doors this woman here had to open in order to seize what's hers' and a few she was forced to have a grip on. She is sweet, she is generous and she is all that people refer to as an all-rounder, a multitask freak, a passionate female and basically, a down to earth human. Yeah,I know these characters ain't no different from yours. I mean,exactly! She is just like all of us. No different. She is not any rich spoon-fed girl walking the traits of her predecessors,who had already made things easier for her to come sit on the throne. She is paving her own tracks,her own route map for the track,her own destination she wishes to reach. Nothing happened to her such as a cakewalk. Every step she wanted to take,and takes to this day is what she decides by herself and for herself. None of these are easy for this woman. Things have their timings to screw up everything. And the decisions you make today may fluctuate by the end of night. The phase you face after making a determination to fight for something may turn out to be frustrating,too pressurising,and sometimes useless too.

This lady here steered in every obstacle stopping her from moving any further. She figured out plans to carry the decisions smooth enough to go to bed that day without having to worry that tomorrow is a big day to me nor was today a bad day. Yes,ofcourse she didn't worry about yesterday because she could not help but agree to the thought,what happened is happened. We all definitely come across few helping hands in our way. Some of them approaching as friends,some as bosses,some as family and some as companions. The woman too had her own trust issues with her fellow beings. The friends were crazy just like her. They were a total mess together,been through the same shits together. But they were never there for her when she needed atleast one hearing heart to pour herself out. Not even having to think that they should return the gratitude to her when all she did was being there for them, irrespective of whether they needed her or not. Then the bosses,well,nothing but bossy and demanding the sweats out of her,counting even the tears. And then the family in the picture, was always supportive and pushing her up, while considering the pointless growing competition she was raised in. Finally speaking of her companions, who never were, played different disturbing roles in her life and always left her stranded at some point or the other. She used to easily accompany someone into her life at any point very easily since she desperately needed someone to rely on. But all that the counterparts did was play their roles for some duration and get away from her, making her seem stupid and silly again and again.

Yeah, I know, most of you right now are cursing me to spit out the identity of this person. She is none other than me.YES, it is myself I am briefing about in this article. I admire myself, I adore myself, I am proud of my mistakes, am happy for the successes I have accomplished. Each morning I wake up with as an eased heart and a peaceful mind to start something new and to finish yesterday's unfinished work. Now look back upon the title of this page. Not surprising that I am obsessed with myself at all, right? Well, let all of us from now on, when some of you already are, consider ourselves as amazing people and be proud of ourselves. Many of you reading this page might share similar views about your life. Let us love ourselves and bring out the best, no matter what shit is stopping us.