New Beginning On It's way!

This is my real love story. Kinda strange but true. Eleven months ago I met a guy on insta. We talked and shared some common thoughts. So we decided to meet in a public place. When I saw him for the first time, it was a dope for me. He was so mesmerizing on the sight.

I never believed in love at first sight. But I failed into it that day. We started meeting more and spending more time together. It was like I found the one. He was so different from other boys. Though he wasn't much educated and earned much, but I fell for his simplicity and nature. I longed for love, not money.

And after sometime, he changed a little bit. Whenever he used to meet, he used to ask for when we are getting into physical relationships. I used to avoid and he used to laugh. But, after two or three months, he got lustier. He asked for it and I refused. He blackmailed me on the pretext of my love. I loved him a lot and couldn't bear to lose him and agreed. He was kind and good enough. He didn't use me up. I was glad to have him.

But, somehow my family got to know about our relationship. I didn't back off but made them know about him and told them that he was different. Still, they didn't believe but on my insisting, they agreed. But he refused to come in front. He never stood for me. He instead started behaving weirdly. Always ignoring or saying I m busy and asking about meeting at his place. I, again and again, told him that I lost freedom. I can't meet you. But he thought I was kidding. And by somedays, my health went down and everything wasn't good. I asked him to go away from my life because I can't give you what you are hoping from me. He literally went off. I cried a lot. I was depressed and sad. My exams came, and, I couldn't do well in them.

I was controlling myself...then he came back. He asked me how I could leave him and all. He talked and I refused to stay with him again. I asked him if he could live without his lust. And he totally refused, and he said he can't. So I asked him to go away from my life.

Some days passed and I started living my life again. I laughed after alot of time. I was happy. And then, he again entered my life.

You might think about how foolish I am. But love sees nothing. I loved him a lot still. And missed him, his voice,his smell, his words and those moments spent together. He cried in front of me, he touched my feet and asked for forgiveness. He realised that he did wrong. And wanted to be again with me. Guess what, this stupid heart again melted and forgave him. Because I loved him, so I gave him another chance. But the last one. Month passed and everything was good. He was changed. And worked well for me. Everything was nice and then suddenly I saw a change in him.

He used to be busier and talked less. Even he didn't call and gave vague replies. He didn't meet me in public at all. I could see some danger. One day he called at night and asked for something that I couldn't bear.

I screamed at him, scolded him, refused him but he didn't listen. He said wrong about my character and made me guilty. I was hopeless and broken. I did the breakup and told him to never ever come back.

Actually it wasn't his mistake. It was all mine. He came back because he couldn't find another girl and he knew I love him and will forgive him. He never talked about our future because he knew he wasn't going to be. It was my love that made me fall for him again and again.

But now it's enough. Scratching off the old things. Ending them all and starting off a new beginning. I am starting a new life where I will love myself more. I will focus on my goals and becoming a gold. I will do the self-love first. I won't seek love from others. Instead love would seek me. I will wait for my love ...my true love to find me!

It's a new beginning... the beginning of finding myself!