A Societal Ideal

I cut to bleed to remove mental suffering

From unbearable pain from which I am recovering

An ease in a form of mere distraction

It may be wrong but it gave such satisfaction

As being medicated feeling nothing means at least I will feel pain

As I’m now dead inside but to you I am ‘sane’

But where have I gone? Where am I?

A medicated lobotomy, I cannot even cry

All just to fit into society’s ‘normality’

As some doctor said that I have an ‘abnormality’

Living in a ‘’Catch 22’, my only other option being death

Even though all of my sins I have confessed

Now being a societal ideal I am numb

Is the rest of the world so completely dumb?

Their ignorance is bliss, being true, but can’t you see?

That I am not me and never again will I be