Lost

It still gives me goosebumps, that turning-point

of my life. That scary experience, that time when I was lost. It all started because of my big mistake, biggest in my life, actually.

...It was sure an annoying, hot summer day. My step- mother has made a routine to shout on me. She's such a tartar. I was very disturbed that day, and there she started her shouting. I was feeling very irritated, I can't take it anymore, I shouted back.

She was a very clever woman, that evening when father came back from work she started crying and told him that I shouted at her without any reason. Father scolded me. That woman did not gave me any food that night, and said that I should have leave the house and not to be a burden on them.

I was feeling very depressed and angry that's why I left the house writing a letter so that they don't try to find me.

I was all alone and hungry, but I didn't want to beg in front of others, so I decided to get a job and live on my own. ... Where should I live, where should I go, my brain was all blank. Then I remembered a movie that I once saw - where there was a boy who lived with a dragon in a forest. Then I had a wonderful idea to live in a forest far away, I decided to take a train to go to a nearby village.

I bought my ticket with my pocket money which I bought along myself, because I didn't wanted to steal my parent's money.

I bought a tent, a stove, a pot, some food and seed to grow as soon as I got there. I pitched the tent near the river bank but. But I was also under the tree shed so that anyone can't find me.

It was very uncomfortable at first, but I was able to adjust in the tent in just three weeks. I am so amazing. I work in a food shop at day and sleep in tent at night. I got paid well, enough to be able to buy food and water. The shopkeeper at the shop where I work also feed me free leftover food. I was living happily until that day:

I was going to work, on the way there I found a deer going down a narrow path in the forest. I chased it, I was very exhausted from running. I missed it in a blink of eye, and I was lost before I realised. It was getting dark, I don't remember how many turns I took. I was scared

and lonely. Then I saw a little golden light that came up tearing the darkness. I chased it too because I was so scared and alone. It was moving so smoothly as if floating in air. I caught it inside my hand. It's light was so bright that the light was coming out of the space between my fingers. I opened my hands a little to see it....... and it was just a firefly. I was so disappointed, because I was expecting something so high, something like a miracle.

... You won't believe me, but when I looked up I was infront of my tent. It was nothing but a miracle. I was so happy that I started crying. I slept very well that night. But I had a dream...

There was the same firefly which brought me to my tent. It wasn't moving but was flying above the ground at a fixed place. It was getting smaller and smaller as if running away. No matter how much I chased it it was getting away from me. Then I heard a voice that said-

" Come with me, to my world. There you will find your dreamland." Then I began to feel very hot, heavy and thirsty. It forced me to wake up. It was dawn, approximately five of four o'clock. I was fully woken up so even if I force myself to sleep I can't sleep.

Then I went to the river to fill my bottle. As I opened the chain of my tent, a smoke like gas filled the tent but it was not smoke. It had a sweet fragrance. When I went out of my tent to see where the gas has been coming from, I saw something very unreal. There wasn't any river nor any forest. It was land, only land. You won't believe me but it was only land with grass, some mountains, lakes and trees. I searched everywhere I can reach, there was nobody. I was very tensed, and about to cry. But I didn't lose hope, I searched again and again. At last I was out of hope, broken.

Then I remembered the words of the firefly,...then I realised that this was the world I have always wanted, a world with no one to interfere with my life. This was my dreamland.

But really this isn't the world I wanted, I hoped that it were a dream.

Then someone shaked me, it was like an earthquake. Then I woke up and realised that it was a dream. My step-mother was waking me up, that was the first time I was happy listening her voice. I hugged her, she was very surprised and out of words. My life was a heaven now. It was all because I was lost, and now I am on the right path.

That nightmare is the light of my life. I can never forget that voice and that firefly. I still get goosebumps just by thinking about it.