Little Twinkle

Childhood one of the cherishing period, where we all humans make lots of beautiful memories. Where time is well spent with games, friends, playing, eating, dancing doing whatever we want. Its the period with the maximum confidence. Here the opinion of other people doesn't matter and the surrounding around us seems too pretty. everyone wants to live their childhood again but its not possible as once the time goes it never come back. Sometime recalling the memories of that period makes us too happy and generate an urge to go back in that period but Twinkle , a girl from a urban city don't want to recall. she hates her childhood, whenever she thinks about it she starts crying. What can be the reason, may be some terrible incident but what let us listen the story from her only. 

Sometime its hard to move forward, its hard to forget everything. As its an addiction of human brain to recall the bad memories again and again even if we don't want to recall it. Hi I am Twinkle, currently working for an NGO which works for the upliftment of a child. its my side work which I do with my main one. Why i am doing this side work if your question is this then the answer is satisfaction. the relief which i get after resolving the problems of teenagers and toddlers. See whenever a child is in problem he/she need the guidance. there is the need of adult but here the thing is that its depends whether the people around them understands them or not. It seems that childhood can't have any problem, everything on demand is available, but its half truth. In childhood too there are many issues where an urgent need of guidance is required. In these times a child feel neglected even though if he/she is surrounded with so many people. I was born with a deformity and as I started growing it slowly started becoming visible due to which I had comparatively less friends with whom I can play. I had few friends only in school but outside i had no one. whenever I try to do friendship they don't use to accept me, i don't know why but its true. when I was in kg class my seniors use to tease me by the name of my father profession. Actually my father was a tea seller and this thing these rich child don't use to like. I use to cry due to all these things even i complained about it, but the teachers didn't took it seriously and I ended up with being quite. The mishappening that take place in childhood becomes the trauma for whole life. Like that I faced one why I was in 3rd standard ( 7 or 8 year old) faced a harassment by one of my relative, that night was horrible. I was shocked and was not able to think properly that what happened to me, and the morning I cried and washed my body properly and was cursing myself for everything that happened. At that time I was searching for someone whom I can tell all the thing but there was no one and due to this silence, the thing repeated again and again for 4-5 days. I wanted to shout and run but I wasn't able to do so. That time I felt that its useless to have people around you if you are not able to even share these types of issues. That's why it is said to parent to be like friend to their children, because the heart of child is too soft. I don't know how I handled myself but I did it this makes me realize about my strength. I met about so many people who tried to eve-tease me but every time I kept all the stuffs with me only and shared it with Kanha only. He was the one who handled me in every situation. The time when puberty hitted me, it was so depressing all those changes that came suddenly was the worst experience. No one was able to explain me that why all these things are happening, even though the text written in books and teachers explanation in schools seems to be too confusing. Talking about all the things between the friends was like a taboo, the term Periods was like " what is this, why is this happening". when I was small and whenever I use to see the adds regarding this and tries to ask my mom the answer used to be simple like " tumko bhi hoga jaldi". When actually it happened ,very first time it was unexplainable, second thing my mom wasn't able to explain why it happens, only she said " isse baccha ho jata hai, ladko se dur rahiyo". Third thing is for few days I almost forgot that I am still a child. I have seen this that about many girls cry on their first period and this thing only happens because our guardian, our teachers, the so called society is not able to explain the reason properly. Due to this instead of becoming happy it becomes a sad part of our life. I tried every time to do my best in academics, extra curricular activities. but never got the happiness because everyone wants more from me. Sometime this over expectation breaks the child from inner. After few years the urge and confidence that was present in me went somewhere. my 8th and 9th standard was so normal my academics also went with many ups and down and Left me as an average child only. The changing time came in 10th when a pressure of expectations came again and I decided to do my best. I did also but still at the time of result except my few friends no one was happy at that day I broke again. I was disappointed and about many questions were roaming here and there in my mind, the biggest turn that came in my life with the entry of Gita. Kanha was my best friend from my childhood only but when I holded the Gita first time I felt his presence and eventually I started seeing everything with patience and started finding the reasons why everything happened slowly-slowly the confidence I had lost came back and once again I stood with all my energy. Today whenever i see the faces of the children, with different faces I see different world, different hopes. I just want to give them a life on which they can feel proud.

There are so many Twinkle and such that there are so many children who are facing a lot because of our mistakes. The crimes against them and these types of incidents can be stopped with more and more awareness among children from the early childhood only. Its our responsibility to make their this time the happiest one. With the time new problems are emerging and with that new challenges are too coming. Its better to teach every child how to behave and how to face each condition. which can only happen with a open mindset and by giving a friendly environment to them where they can share everything.