Her Life

Ch. 1

You can judge me if you want

 #devilisback

Day: March 12, 1998

Tick tock tick tock time is running, the clock is at 9, the world is moving fast and you can't keep up, if you miss one second. The wind is so soft it makes me feel pleasant,... everything is so slow and beautifully. You hardly can hear the scream of traffic. wait! wake up wake up I screamed from inside but as decided by the faith i lost the balance of my life again. The beautiful sky, the atmosphere is synchronizing with cool breeze, making the aerosphere empty and soundless, That you can only feel the wind making love with leaves and Floret. Dancing, flying around touching your flash with a gentle smile. That sun who kills the morning energy is pleasing, letting you sparkle and that's when you realized you can also be happy and not regular happiness but that smile which you never hoped for last 21 years. Your jaw is actually automatically moving and your lips our giving a relaxed feeling, I was delighted with that emotions. and the first time I felt that happiness which I was seeking for past 21 years.

That question came "why today I feel so alive" 

21 years old me working in a bank with normal routine life have tragic past and no hope for happiness. My family stays like 538 miles away from me, it's been like 5 years that I didn't visit them and it's been 1years I am not in touch with them. Yah sometimes my sister texts me when she is sought of money rather than that you can say I am alone

No relationship till now actually never felt like I need someone to depend on 

Yah right that's not possible of course higher secondary is all about crush and love and so on but that's true I never had

Now who has the question about my happiness or my past if you want to know you have to wait until tomorrow

Ch. 2

You can judge me if you want 

#devilisback

Day: March 13, 1998

What is the difference between black and white do you know darkness and brightness who says this sorry but that's half of the answer. This is a scream which no one can hear and the voice everyone praises.

I know you waiting to know about me before that let me tell you I'm dead don't get scared this not my ghost who wrote this me but me when I was alive, it sounds like a filmy horror movie ...

Okay I want you to stop imagining as you will get all you answer at the end 

It's hard to live now after realizing this will never end, I can't fake my life 

"hey tammy look isn't that your GF who's sitting there do you want to join her

Why should I if there is beauty seating beside me"

Tammy famous in girls good at flirting and the first colleague who was nice to me 

His girlfriend named Jenifer I didn't know much about her but they were together I guess for 2 years he always uses to try to make me happy and get upset coz his stupid jokes couldn't make me laugh or smile. so today was the day, our "life goes well" the bank had become 50 years old and today there was a huge party and also many rich people and celebrities were invited so you can imagine only a fool will miss such event and there I was the only foolish girl sitting and doing work whereas all the staff went early to prepare for the party

"tammy: don't tell me you are really doing work that's boring. I was list bothered to reply at that moment but still replied you should know the party is not like me" he turned my chair lift my hand which was busy typing and said "if you don't let yourself fly how will you know how beautifully the sky is'' at that time It freeze me for a moment and that was when I started liking him. childish too childish right.

Foolish I actually listened and started packing up things to live I actually spent time choosing a dress and getting ready and that to I didn't stop there I actually dressed according to tammy I wore his favorite colored dress, purple and with light make up I remember he had said I should apply light makeup and also the fragrance once he had complimented I know that sounds stupid but I am you know it's my first time getting such feelings so I don't know how to act

It 9 and I remember Teresa and others said the party will start at 10 so I should get going then.