Traffic Light

This traffic light inside my head

Is always green and never red.

My thoughts, my dreams, and all my fears,

They all speed past my listening ears.

I close my eyes to block it out,

But inside my head they rush about.

I take a breath to slow it down,

But upon my face appears a frown.

My heart beats fast,

But my breathing slows.

I breathe in life

Then out it goes.

My body's numb,

Yet I feel my tears.

I've lost count of the days,

The months, and the years.

This traffic light

Inside my head...

I'm scared of the day

When it turns red.