Never Sober

I think I'm out of mind right now 

When I'm gone don't tell you to love me 

I'm taking pills to keep me steady 

But drinking alcohol for pain 

I wanted to die only death can give me peace 

Man, I'm losing myself right now 

God, why do you give me problems? 

Why do you pushing me into pain 

Why can't you slap me in the face and tell me I'm useless? 

I can't take it anymore 

Yeah, I got it free will, why to? 

I'm never sober to choose 

Can you do it for me, God?