Lived for a while

I'm a person 

Who blame others 

By the glance you can tell that I'm a lazy person 

I don't work  

I don't put the effort to be the best 

I used to be a person filled with curiosity 

But after everything that happened to me 

I lost faith in myself and trying hard to live 

I blame God for making things happened against me. 

I don't know why but I feel ashamed of living like this.