Just My Demons

I have loved,

I have betrayed,

Been loved and been betrayed.

I have lost,

I have gained.

I did unto others what was done unto me,

Fuelled my hatred with all the pain I received,

Spread the pain and spread more hatred than I did.

I have won,

I have been defeated,

I have both cherished and loathed.

I have hurt,

I am scared.

I looked in others for what was not within,

Been consumed by the ghouls in others,

Being consumed by the demons within.

I have been rich,

I have been poor,

Been both selfish and generous.

I have been warm,

I have been cold.

But my conscience always knows,

I have listened to the voice within and been lost,

I have been deaf to the voice within and have been lost.

I have been good,

I have been evil,

I am merely yet another human.

I am in heaven,

I am in hell.

Been guilty of being another's judge jury and executioner

I have reaped what I sowed,

I have faced, and been, karma that was owed.

I am strong,

I am weak,

I have been the strong that preys on the weak.

I want to live,

I want to die.

I find hope sometimes, sometimes it's yet another lie,

Is my story just like any other and not special?

Am I my demons in just another vessel?