Influenced

I got tricked again,

To be doped,

To be taken granted,

To be mundane,

I got tricked again,

To lie,

To watch steamy scenes,

To lose control,

I got tricked again,

To reveal,

To crave for attention,

To like the unlikable,

I got tricked again,

To slavery,

To regret emotions,

To self-loathe,

I got tricked again,

To break my powerful routine,

To become an object,

To be useless,

I got tricked again,

To surrender,

To experience the same old bad habits,

To divert energy,

I am getting tricked again and again,

I am getting influenced to be the old self,

To be lazy, regular asshole,

Should I give in to urges,

The urges which destroyed me,

The urges which made me a slave to others,

The urges which made me hate myself,

Should I give in?

No,

My heart is saying No,

My mind is not listening to my heart,

I have to fight,

With myself,

To restrict the urges,

To utilize the energy to my growth,

To love me,

To be the better version every day of my life.

I decided to fight those influences,

What about you?