An Anonymous Sadness
An Anonymous Sadness
Blank, confused
A new normal for me
Anxiety, stress
My new friends
Is this how my life is gonna be?
Safe and comfortable in my home
What's the problem?
I wonder
It's scary and dark inside of me
A time just like after the thunder
A little rain will make it alright
Clear the air
Make it a peaceful night
But it didn't rain. Did it?
I so hoped it would
Wanted so bad for those loud noises to go away
But nothing worked out anyway
Is my past knocking my doors again?
Or is it the feeling of being locked in?
I never was a social person
Where did it then all begin?
People say you just overthink
I certainly do,
Stop doing that and you'll be alright
But is it that easy for the sky to suddenly turn blue?
Nice weather was something I was waiting for
It did come but was a total bizarre
Swirling and destructive winds in the city of dreams
That's what it took to give a sigh of relief this far.
Every solution has it's good and bad
But what point if it only makes you sad
Indulge yourself in happy thoughts
That is the only thing I'm always taught
To say to my mind, stop and put an end to it
Thoughts which it took so much time to build
It doesn't work that way
No one understands
Every sad face is not depression
There are forms of sadness other than that
Unable to figure out mine, that's it
That's the issue
So simple as that
Dealing with the unknown is something that I never have
But meanwhile,
My friends, some real ones
They keep me sane
So does my sister who blabbers around
But brightens my day
My brother, who expresses his affection in his own weird way
And my mother, for whom I don't even have words to say
For them, I'll not let this unknown shatter me apart
They are the reason, I'll begin fixing myself from the start.