Love: The Purest Promise

Over a random video call one morning, we were talking and out of nowhere, I realized she was staring intently at me.

I asked her, 'what happened?' to which she replied, 'I miss you'.

Like every other day how we convey missing the other person, I thought this was the same. I looked into her eyes, and said, 'I miss you too.’

Suddenly, something felt different. It wasn't a normal, every other day kind, 'I miss you'.

Her eyes were wet.

Getting a little scared, I asked her if she was okay. She replied in affirmative. But her eyes were speaking something else. I wanted to hug her and tell her I was there for her. Right in front of her eyes. I wanted to touch her and make her feel my presence. I wanted to hold her face between my palms and kiss her forehead.

None of that was possible though. Maybe that helplessness brought out those tears.

Distance apart was killing us, but knowing we were gonna get through this, was the one ray of hope we were watching out for.

While going through all these emotions, I looked at her and saw her lips moving, without uttering a word, saying 'I love you', with tears in her eyes.

That was one real moment I believed her. A voice inside me told me she really did. It gave me goosebumps, all of a sudden. The kind that tells you, “okay, this shit's real.”

We fight, argue and blame each other in relationships. We question the other person, and the choices and decisions we took, for them and with them. We wonder if we're making the right choice staying where we are, and whether the person we've chosen is the right one. We constanly look out for perfection. We expect the other person to be flawless and treat us like a king or queen. To fit our idea of love.

But, do we look within ourselves? How often, during or after a fight, we try and understand what we did and how it must've felt wrong to the other person? How often do we question ourselves? How often do we question our definition of love? How often do we wonder if our expectations are reasonable? How often do we think what we should do to make the situation better or avoid the fight from next time?

Rarely, right? Sometimes, maybe?

Instead of focusing on whether the other person is doing right for us or not, it's important to figure out, are we doing right to ourselves? Are we being good enough or worthy enough of the love we desire? Are we putting in the effort to end the fight and make someone smile?

Ask yourself first.

Everytime you're upset over something someone did to you, ask yourself if you did something to deserve it. Ask yourself if you were in that person's place, how you would've felt and what would you've done.

Beyond all the fights, miscommunication, tantrums and mood swings, there lies a lot of love. The kind of love you never knew you could feel. The kind of love that makes you happy, and happier every single day. The kind of love that makes you want to scream to the world, that you've found your own person. And you deserve every bit of it.

AND THAT'S A PROMISE.