I Love You Till Eternity

I feel for her, I care for her, I want to be with her, I haven’t felt this before. Why am I missing her? Why time is not passing by? Is this all true? Am I in love with her…?

It was a dull afternoon and vacation was about to get over. I was surfing on the internet, to be precise it was Facebook. Nothing much one can do in order to make good use of time. Thus there was I but apart from all monotonous afternoons, this was certainly different as this was the time when I met her. It didn’t come all of a sudden though, I had a crush on her when we both were in class 8th; yes a little teenage thing. But seeing her now after around three and half year was a bit unexpected as regardless of being in the same school we didn’t interact with each other; strange! I know. This time I don’t want to do repeat that same thing again so I messaged her:

Hey, I texted followed by how are you?

She replied: I am fine, what about you Prerit?

Though it was on the chat she calling my name felt like real! I could hear her writing, it was that melodies and soothing. I then resumed myself and replied:

I am fine too, Rupali. And that is her name ‘Rupali’, it won’t be wrong if I say that she justifies her name in every manner. We talked for the rest of the holidays and I don’t know about the past days but surely the last few one of them were beautiful and it felt like “life is full of roses”. The school reopened and now I will be able to see her which was basically a two-way thing for me. I was jubilant and dithery at the same time. Luckily I didn’t have to initiate our meet as she came to my class in the lunch break. I saw her coming and she was appearing like the first drop of rain which was poured only for me somewhere above the sky. We talked and the bell rang just after 5 minutes, actually, it rang on time but time flew when I was with her.

This was our daily talking routine. I used to wait for the lunch breaks as this was the time when I used to meet her. 11-11:30 was a golden hour for us. After a while, we started to meet at home time as well. I used to wait for my van and she for her dad. There was time issue however we both still managed to spend some quality with each other. One year passed by and we both shared a very beautiful bond.

One morning she texted me:

Prerit, I am going out for a month to my hometown for a family function

I replied: ok take care!

I said ok but very soon I realized that everything is not right. Someone's presence is missing. The usual lunch break which was very short suddenly appears to be very long. The tree where we both used to stand under it reminded of her. I thought she might turn up from behind and will say my name with a big cheerful smile.

I was in love. Yes, I love her! I want to confess to her about my feelings but one thing restrained which was what if I said and she said no and might even break the friendship. Then what? I will lose a very dear friend which I can’t afford. She then after one month came and the first question she asked: did you missed me? ‘Yes, I missed you’ will not justify my feelings as it was more than that. Thereby I said: studies occupied me and most of the days it was a half-day. After school, I used to message you, so it didn’t felt like you were far from me. She smiled and nodded. I knew what she was hiding something in her smile. Months passed by and I decided that it’s actually time to tell her what I feel for her. Actually she knew what I feel for her, it’s just the 3 words thing. It was on a phone call I said:

Rupali, I wanted to say this to you for a very long time but I couldn’t

She replied: What is that thing troubling you so much?

I said in a very hurrying manner: I love you Rupali

She took a pause after hearing this and then I broke the silence by saying: please you also reciprocate.

She laughed with the way I delivered it and said: I love you too Prerit.

I stood there for a few minutes, everything around me gave me the thought of seeing it for the last time. My eyes which were in tears were looking for her. I knew she won’t come back but one of those things which said she might. I looked around the station, pounded upon my past. Headed towards my home with never-ending tears which caught everyone’s eye. Something was about to change…

The school was over and results were out soon. The much-awaited results also came, allotment of colleges and all. I somehow knew that we might get collages in different cities. I didn’t want to but that was I being selfish. Nothing should come in our future. I got admission in the Engineering College in Delhi itself. I was quite happy as the hostel burden wasn’t there. After the result I hurriedly called her:

Hello, Rupali?

Yes, Prerit she said, her voice was very low

Is everything alright? Out of concern, I asked

Yeah I am good just wanted to tell you, she replied

But first me, I got admission in the Delhi itself and I am super excited, with a tone full of enthusiasm

OH wow! Great yarr. she replied

What about your results? The first-round result was supposed to come today, I acquired

She said, yes and I got admission in Lucknow

OH, Marvelous! Congratulations now you owe me a party, I tried to keep that same enthusiasm

She resumed to her happy tone and said you happy Prerit?

Of course, I am. Indeed we have two reasons for the celebration and wait I guess I am getting my uncle’s call. I will call back you later, I said

Okay! Bye, and she hangs up the call. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a moment. Within few seconds’ dynamics of my world changed. It was barely a year of us being together and suddenly we were switched on to the long distance. I wasn’t prepared for this, nor was she. But it came and was happily accepted. After a few days she said:

I am leaving for Lucknow in the coming week so let’s catchup

I said, sure I will come to the metro station to pick you.

It was our last meet as of now and due to this it ought to be quite emotional but I have made sure that she didn’t cry. We both laughed, went to the café, I sang for her even made her dance with me, clicked an immense amount of photos, showed her my stupid poses which made her laugh even more. Her smile gave me a reason for my smile too.

After these cherry moments, her station came and we both stood there for a while realizing that time had passed once again. I hugged her and didn’t said a word. I was numb at that moment and gave her a smile. That smile was hiding a whole lot of emotions which I didn’t want to portrait to her as she won’t be able to leave Delhi on a positive note. Before going she asked:

How much do you love me Prerit?

I said, what this question is! I love you a lot and will always do

She then smiled and went

I followed her steps, she went outside and I stopped there. Looked around the station everything was usual and basic but not on that day. Everything reminded me of seeing it for the last time. Every object present over there possesses its own beauty which I was admiring. Though it was nothing new but it was new for that ‘day, for that time, for that moment.’

Wake up! Are you listening to me? Come on please wake up. You can’t do this to me! You are not allowed to do so. There are certain things which I haven’t told you yet. You can’t leave me like this! Come on wake up. I beg you, please! I…

Days passed by, months passed by and so did years. Our meets reduced to negligible as she was not getting a holiday from her college but that doesn’t mean that our love decreased for each other. No, indeed it grew stronger day by day. It was like that school phase where she is in her family function for one month and I am waiting for her return. But this time that one month's time period is a bit long. We talked daily on chats, on phone calls, on social networking and everywhere where our talks were possible. There were restrictions on certain things but then many good things opened for us. Like there were no time constraints, no interference things and stuff like that. We had given ‘time its own space’ so that ultimately we both will get to meet each other and live there happily.

But there was something else written for both of us which was absolutely not welcomed. One day her friend called and her voice was shivering. She was trying to say something like crom...com... But I couldn’t make it out.

I said to calm down and tell what happened and why are you calling from Rupali’s phone? Where is she? Is everything fine?

She said, Rupali was going to the class and suddenly she slipped from the stairs and fell from the 3rd floor to the ground floor. Internal bleeding was so much that it resulted in her Comma.

After I heard the last word, I got fainted. I lost my control over my senses and I didn’t how I managed to stand on my feet again. The next thing I knew was that I ought to be there with her. She needs me and as she will see me, all her memory will come her back and everything will be back to normal. I need to tell her how much I love her. How can she forget me? She promised me to be with me forever. I was not accepting the truth until I see her with my own eyes.

I somehow reached and went to hospital. I ran towards her room, took permission from the Dr's and went inside. There she was, taking a nice sweet nap.

Love, see I told everyone nothing has happened to you. They are considering your sleep as comma. I told them she is very brave. No one can touch her. Come love let’s go home now. It is quite long now. Wake up! Everyone is waiting outside. Come let’s go. You can’t stay there. Where is that smile? You always ask questions from me, isn’t it? I will answer your question. Ask from me! I am waiting

Wake up! Wake up! Remember you asked me in school did you missed me? Yes, I had missed you a lot. Every single bit of thing reminded me of you. I could barely eat, couldn’t concentrate. I was lost and you know why because I was missing you a lot. And see you are not even listening to me!

Remember the last day of our meet. You said not to cry! I cried the whole of my journey till home and when you asked me, I lied to you. Get up now and beat me for the lie.

What did you asked me how much do I love you? Remember this question. My answer is I love you till eternity, my love. If you want to take more nap, don’t worry I am sitting by your side and when you will wake the first person whom you will see, will be Me.