I'll Fail Again

I can't sleep at night,

I don't know why.

I can't express what's in my heart,

I don't know why.

Nothing works fine, nothing goes well,

My prayers are not answered.

Just to keep him happy,

I wish I could die and sleep forever.

I know I deserve more,

I am worth more,

But in front of him, I am that zero.

I feel alone and lonely,

I am frozen with feelings,

Overthinking and depression made me mad,

I live in illusion,

I see him everywhere,

I see the shattered me in mirror,

When I smile there is still a small jerk of pain,

Oh, yeah..!

I don't care anymore..

He is nothing to me...

He's gone too far from me..

But I'll again fail at 3AM...