6th June

Today at 3:07 I woke up. I feel something strange. I'm suddenly feeling very heavy and after that, my head started bursting. I just get up from my bed and move towards the window and feel a little strange. The empty roads in the front of my eyes are hypnotizing, it feels like the road wants to say something. Then suddenly I feel a little cold and with that, I also feel a little bit scared. After that, I shut down the windows and their eyes with a thick curtain. Which feels a little bit safer and a little bit calm.

Then I lie down on my bed and try to get some sleep because the left side of my head is in pain, and I'm also not feeling comfortable because once again that strange feeling hit my whole body. But still, I decided to focus on my sleep, not on that feeling. 

So I just close my eyes. And got a feeling like someone is coming towards me. So I open my eyes to check. But no one there in my room. So once again I close my eyes. And now I heard some kind of voice. A voice like "you have to kill yourself" and I woke up in a very sacred manner and feel like I woke up from death. Then after I decided to do something because those words are making paths in my mind or we can say in my subconscious mind.

After that, I just switched on the lights, and then I open my door walk towards the living room for a short walk, and then I walked towards the fridge to grab some water for me. While I was drinking water I heard someone's soothing voice. And my water gets choked up in my throat. And it feels like someone had grabbed my neck. But after some seconds I feel relieved.

Once again I'm feeling scared and run back to my room and decided to sit quietly under lights which feels like a little bit secure. 

At around 4:10, I woke up because I had a dream, and in that dream, a big black shadow is following me. And I keep on running and crying out for help but no one is there. And in that total blackness, I heard sounds of laughing like everyone is laughing at me. And I woke up with heavy breathing. And slowly time passes but still, my heart is pumping very fast. 

Then I decided to sit quietly on my bed with some creepy thoughts.

Now I once again decided to check my window and now time is 5:06 close to 5:07, and I just open my curtains and windows and watching that empty road again but this time it feels a little bit different. Now it feels a little bit calming. And slowly my eyes got attracted towards roads and I'm watching them very peacefully for almost 8 to 9 mins. 

Now it's 5:16, and I close my window half and sit again on my bed and suddenly I started feeling so dizzy. So I close my eyes. And God knows when my eyes got so much sleep. That I fall asleep in few seconds.

And now I woke up a little bit late and now it's almost 10:09 and when I woke this time, I feel like whatever happens to me last night, it's just a dream. And I'm in my dream world. That's why no one is there to help me out. 

So I cut all this crap and get up to start my day With a fresh morning.