When Memories Fade

When memories fade into a maze of white clouds endless 

Erasing places people and spaces of existence 

I ask looking at her sharp decisive face

She said that is what hurt does 

Collapsing timelines...

Yet throwing into nightmares of unfathomable pain...

Trauma!

Embedded into the self like

A venom that burns slowly 

Builds in like a volcano 

But Soul my Soul I let you free.

Soliloquy of the heart that silences,

The voices that argue and set fire 

To thoughts deluded and irrational

Where am I to seek the quantum of solace 

Other than in me and not in any 

Random person, kith or kin.

In this body of innumerable possibilities

I am my healer, my path and my destiny

I can stretch into postures of control and release and listen to a language in which

My inner being converse, I can breathe out and in creating waves of channels to connect with the universe, oh yeah yes

I can awaken to the truth that emancipates 

Ripping off bondages 

Severing all that binds 

If I could see in my darkness 

That sun burning within me!

I could drench in a rain of fearlessness!

I could become that vine of heaven 

That turn into ambrosa, the nectar!

Then as love, I could seep in 

In every wound inflicted 

In to every dream shattered 

In to every word of blasphemy spoken 

In every libel and slander tolerated 

In to every scar unhealed from blows

Of unkind arrogance.

So very ....Traumatic.

I still looked at her ...

She continued it depends ...those memories ...

I smiled as I walked away, In a world full of vice I yearned .. eyes full of ocean

Eyes..full of ocean