What Am I Running From?

I’m running from something. 

I’m trying really hard to run from it. 

It’s like I run and I don’t move. It’s like I’m trying to escape these parts of myself. 

These parts that I don’t like, or don’t want to acknowledge. 

I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to feel. It feels extreme, all the time. 

Feeling is too much at times, a lot of the time. 

I just remember being exhausted. 

Simply from dealing with my own mind. 

I’m scared of what will happen if I allow myself to feel.