True Feelings

Disguise myself with 

A Mask of a fake smile 

So that no one can know 

What my true feelings are,

Saying that I am fine,

But deep down my heart is bleeding,

It feels like I'm trapped in my own emotions,

Want to be lonely and cry 

cause that's what I'm feeling,

But will crying solve my contemplation?

My mind keeps wondering

As a reminder of my past,

Want to move on.

But why is it that

I can't,

Those Memories comes back and haunt me every time,

 I wonder,

Was I worthless 

Or I have some flaws,

Maybe I have expected too much 

From someone who never meant to be mine,

Clasping to the pillow 

Crying my heart

Because I never want to hurt those who love me every hour,

Watching me depressed will make them fragile,

I know,

I just have to hold on,

I just have to embrace myself,

Those injuries will heal away 

And there will be a time 

Where I no longer care...