Surrender

Today, I wished to surrender

Myself within myself.

But to accept the task of surrender is too difficult, it came to know today, itself.

Though the inner me accepted the nurture, care, affection, love, closeness, simplicity fully,

But, jealousy, anger, hatred, difficulty, ego opposed, and protested it closely.

Now, one matter has remained not understood totally, 

If these were not needed necessarily,

Then how did it start its kingdom inside me, gradually?