Phantom Of Love

Silver rain falls in great drops

And a cold breeze gives me shivers

Causing me equal agony.

Neither my sleep is whole,

Nor, my dream complete.

I screamed your name

But you just watched me sink further

Until I was no more.

I drown myself in alcohol

To escape the pain

Only to learn that it is inexorable. 

Then I ponder

Under the pitter-patter

Hiss and swish of exponential scales

At the wrongness of raindrops

In a moonbeam.

For how much longer

Will I feel this pain in my chest.

For how much longer

Will I see your cold eyes

Whenever I close mine.

For how much longer

Will I end my days

Tortured by the memories.

Silent is the night, 

Silent is my pain, 

Silent is the heartache,

Like a furnace burns -

Dancing at the back of the mind.

Haunting me with sadness.

Without you, my life has a hole

That can't be filled with anything else. Hence

Transformed me Into a phantom,

Intangible

Dispersed into

Powerless anguish by your terror.

Flaunting in darkness

Past hurts and pains, 

Put to rewind inside my head

That is now a storm.

Yet,

My chest is just empty

And through the noise

A deafening silence I still feel you...