My Happy New Year

Something was amiss,

The place was the same

So were the chairs,

The benches, the desk.

I was there to learn

But I couldn't concentrate.

I was looking for you

But why was I looking for you?

You were one of the many guys

I had decided wasn't my type.

Still, I sat there,

Struggling not to look at the door.

The day ended

I walk back home,

Drowning in my thoughts

Wondering why they

All were about you.

My birthday rolls in,

Yet another year.

But not a soul knows here.

By now,

I have convinced myself,

You just a fickle distraction,

My distressed mind has conjured.

I sit on the terrace,

Laughing with the friends

I have since made.

Smiling more than I

probably should,

Remarking how wonderful is the weather;

But, until this winter,

I had always hated the cold

and the shivers!!!

Days pass away,

But each moment was a year.

Thinking about you,

Then dragging myself away

Became a daily chore.

I giggled,

When my friend asked,

"Any cute guys there?"

And then realized,

You probably don't even

Know my name.

The class has decided

To hold a celebration,

To usher in the newness

Of yet another year.

I don't expect you to be here,

But my heart,

It has started believing in miracles,

And a little less fear.

I put my arms around my friend,

Laughing about something

I don't recall;

My clumsy shoe stumbles upon

Your foot,

And my head

Falls on your chest.

You magically appear behind

When I turn my head.

Staring into my eyes

Mumbling,

"Happy New Year".