Lost And Never Found

My head is full of noises

But there is that one sound that is unable to get out. 

Is it me?

Or just my imagination?

The voice that tells me what’s wrong and what’s right. 

The voice that helps me take my decisions

The voice that makes me trust people

The voice that saves me in difficult situations 

But why am I not able to hear you today?

Where are you lost?

Maybe the negativity has taken a toll on me

Drowned me completely into the pool of pessimism 

I cannot see you!

I cannot hear you!

Where is ME?

Am I lost too?

Will I lose you too?

I’m not able to understand anything 

Will you help me in finding the real ME?

Or let me drown in my own guilt?

Why exactly are you with me?

When all I give you is

Embarrassment and sleepless nights. 

I know I’m the worst. 

But am I that bad?