In Retrospect

So much to say, no words today

What can I do, my life just gray

Wanted to paint the rainbows of life

Turned to see, my heart in strife.

 

Where do I go? Where shall I hide?

My eyes well up at the thought in tides!

What answer does my heart seek in its grief

His love made me full in this time brief.

 

He has no answers to what my mind asks

The heart in his love wants to bask

Little does he know, what my life has been

It has plunged into murk from all the sheen

 

I wish today in tears for two hearts,

I would have still danced to Mozart

But God decided to give me just one

He sits high up there, has fun.

 

His words pierce like a dagger through the soul

Like feet on a stony path, in a ragged sole

Praying for his love shield, I cried, I begged

I knew this path only to my graveled.

 

Heart writhing in pain doesn't speak

Just lets out a little squeak

All is well I say to the broken pieces

This is all the work of Iblees

 

That day will come when he will the expanse of my love realize

I wish they thought of me, doesn't he traumatize

I wish that he have all cheer and charm

Yea I love you, love you always Jaan