Fragility

Fearless fearful,

Fickle Fragile life; 

Fretting frightening 

Darkening skies-

Rumour has it, it's all about fights 

Whilst Losses you triumph

Shine as big diamonds in your crown ;

A crown fashioned from ashes 

Of the loved ones you lost,

The close ones you bid adieu, 

The far ones who passed.

The close ones betrayed - 

The farthest loved -

The lowest that fill you with dread and disgust;

They break you.

They make you.

Shatter the glasses, 

Peek through the shards,

Mould with cellotape

Which peels on the ends.

One minute is the happiest day

You are holding his hand, 

He is breathing next to you -

The next he's gone

The very essence and pillar of your life -

Just taken away 

Unbelievable darkness

Inexistence of fairness

Is what you felt that night.

Machines beep erratically

They blame medications 

Some blame the ones in white 

I blame myself 

For not spending enough time 

Like a premonition, death came to me 

Will hit so close to home never struck me

Life

So flickery fragile

What hopes 

Do I keep?

What dream

Do I see?

When all of it just crashes 

How do I be?