Feeling trapped

I don't know when my mind 

slipped into violent trauma 

My safe senses seems lost 

Can't recognize any miracles or visions

Forgot the art of small steps 

Looking around these 

Dull brown walls 

Lonely but United walls 

Cracks revealing the 

Treachery of my present 

I curse. I cry , I scratch 

My lost destiny 

No dreams to entertain me 

No words to calm me 

I can't smile at my selfie 

Away from home 

Isolated like never before 

Shall I stay alive 

Before the deaths and threats 

Pile up my hovering brain

Only tangled thinning hair

Wrapping my unwashed face 

I can't wipe the dirt of anger 

Fear and annoyance 

Everywhere I see 

Broken fragments 

Pumping my room 

No exposure .no pleasure 

Where is my treasure of happiness 

The lust of living 

The passion of achieving 

The power of praying

Silence seems so irritating 

Have I grown up so fast 

Without relishing my childhood 

A little more ,

Why am I beset with gloom 

Failures ,fiascos and setbacks 

Keep dragging me towards it 

How can I forget my worthiness 

The management of discipline 

The hard work and dedication 

My heart wants to run and play 

In the verdant fields 

With my joyous herd of friends 

I can't move my legs anymore 

My hands seem frozen 

Have I become so obsolete 

To be thrown away as if 

A broken furniture 

The world is changing so am I 

Heated about to erupt 

Can I take a splash please to 

Soothen my soulful cries 

Oh! Please help me unravel 

My deadly vampiristic feeling 

I want to be a normal human being...