ANXIETY

At the stroke of midnight hour

I lie buried in the coffin of bed

Satin sheets are my shroud

Shame is my veil

and I cuddle with fear

With no one to ask of me

yet I anticipate a door knock

The clock strikes half past 1

But there is no sleep in my eyes

I get anxious at the thought of choking

with no one to Heimlich

I lose breath and sit

Eat some chocolate and drink water

My heart pounds with anxiety

My soul clings hard to my chest

The desire to not die is surreal

with death waving on top of my head

The tussle ends with sweat and chills

My heart then heaves a sigh

The body becomes more conscious

the episode has passed

And I feel to survive it

But for how long?

this question troubles me yet again

but this time sleep can seduce me

I throw it on tomorrow

My rendezvous with panic!

It feels hollow throughout this turmoil

I wish nothing but sanity

I want nothing but someone

To hug me deep in this time of distress

I have my family with me

But still I need someone else to hold me

Someone who can take my troubles away

Oh dream lover, come o come

my life is ebbing away.