Aftershocks

Touching the person you love

It feels like your cracks are filled

Your edges are smooth

Your heart is whole

It is electricity

They aren't lying in the stories

But when they leave

All of that goes away

Your cracks are empty

And the hole in your heart is still there

Aching for them

I know that I will never feel that again with her

Because I shattered the fragile closeness we once had

When I told her I wanted more than friendship

Now she doesn't touch me

She doesn't sit as close on the couch

She doesn't look at me the same

I know she doesn't mean to

She promised it wouldn't change anything

She probably doesn't even think about it

But every time she sits a little farther away then she would have before

I feel it in my soul

And the cracks feel like gaping chasms

These are the times when I still feel aftershocks

Of the earthquake you were