A Display Of Anger
A Display Of Anger
Red Hot anger surged through my veins
It surprised me more than It did anyone
How can I hold so much hatred within me, I wondered
This was so unlike me
My frustration was usually communicated through salty tears
Rather than sharp words
I prided myself on my patience and perseverance
I tried hard to keep a calm demeanour
I smiled even my heart bled
I firmly believe in bottling up my emotions
And was quite successful until now
Suddenly, my feelings are all over the place
The slightest event could trigger a full-grown reaction
I am in a constant defensive mode
Maybe my loneliness is finally acting up
Is it a way of expressing my pain?
Is it a form of disappointment?
Sometimes, it feels like misdirected anger
Who am I angry on?
Is it on others?
Or Am I angry with myself?
I feel so guilty about it
Yet urge myself to embrace it
I wish I could let it go
Still, I want to wear it like an armour