Unconditional love guaranteed

To love someone unconditionally is thin on the ground. But if you had any chance of experiencing the joy of it, you feel elevated and it’s a glimpse of heaven. Trust me.

I am a simple married women who wanted a fairy love life and has one too. The varied relationships I have in my life, be it love from spouse, parental love or love for friends never completely fit in the definition of unconditional love and I slowly started believing that it doesn’t exist. I think it’s a delusion which our heart demands for but mind fails to accept the nonexistence of it. Every one craves to be loved without any mandates.

I am Happily married with no kids yet no regrets. It was my husband’s idea to adopt him. I was hesitant indecisive and unconfident at first. Being a parent is arduous job demanding time and energy. Parenting is not every one’s cup of tea and it involves compromising and being selfless. I always thought I am not a mother material. 

With lot of research & pondering I finally decided to go for it and adopt one. My husband and my entire family was happy yet anxious too. We found a suitable boy, cute and handsome. Caught me at first sight. The care takers informed that the baby is just 2 months old and we decided we are getting him home.

I started making all the preparations, getting him bed, toys, food etc. I just want him to feel home and feel loved. The D- Day arrived. My husband and his cousins left to bring him home. Since he is a toddler who would crawl around the house I made sure the house is clean and spotless.

Waiting anxiously to hold him in my hands. Half an hour passed but no sight of them. Every now and then I would run to balcony to see if they arrived. Couldn’t kill time. At last I see them coming. My heart is pounding. I remember the first look of him & having goosebumps. My eyes filled with tears touching him, holding him, see him yawning. He barely could walk or open his eyes. I spent hours just looking at him.

The initial one week was so demanding and exhausting as me and my husband had sleep deprivation. We were naïve parents, didn’t know how to handle him. Slowly we started getting used to the new change in our lives.

The feeling of being a mother is so new to me. I go sleep with him when he cries in the midnight. I would never skip his meal timings. Deeply swamped at work yet always found time to play with him.

He became comfortable with us. Very friendly yet naughty. Troubling his grandmother is his favorite pastime. Everything around us revolved around our cute little boy. He became an apple of my eye.

Nothing seemed ugly or awful with him. Picking up potty, cleaning the pee everything we got accustomed to. He became a bundle of joy for the family. Slowly me and my son started understanding each other. Even though I am not his biological mother, there was an overwhelming feeling of love and affection that can never be described. My motherly feeling & instinct was suddenly awakened. I get hurt when he gets hurt. I fought battles with my husband for punishing him. I feel jealous about my husband if I see my son getting close to his father. Silly me. And If he is unwell the entire family is down. 

An instance that is always etched in my memory is a day where we had to leave him with one of our neighbors since we were going out and couldn’t take him along. I remember how painful it was for us to leave him. The next day we saw him very depressed and sad. We thought he would be angry but the moment he saw us he was jumping with joy and a sigh of relief. His love for us is immeasurable.

We punish him for being very naughty and careless but yet he always finds happiness and warmth around us. Everyday he reminds me that I am being loved and I am soaked in unconditional love. I can just sit back and talk for hours with him and he wouldn’t judge. I know I can hurt him a bit & he would still love me. I cry and he wouldn’t ask a reason but yet doesn’t leave me alone. We leave him at home and we know that there is one pure soul always awaiting our presence.

Slowly I started believing in the concept of unconditional love. To love without any expectations is a rare quality.. A love that can be found only in four legged creatures who are beautifully called as Dogs. Love has no boundaries. I wish everyone in their life time should experience this feeling of unconditional love and I have found unconditional love in my four legged cutie pie who we named as Amigo and it is our pet, but more importantly our son.

So humans, Unconditional love is PAWSIBLE.. Get home one and relish the joy.