Stayed By My Side

When I switched to a news channel, the news that was showing left me devastated. The person who motivated me and inspired me, who persuaded me through his optimism to change my perspective towards life, not just me but many, has committed suicide. How fragile, how broken that person must have been that he chose to give up while he motivated many to not give up.

As I opened Instagram following this, there was a crowd of posts that read - "Talk with us", "Be there for people", "Be kind to people", "Listen to people" etc. By this time I had already portrayed myself all spilled with blood flowing out of my wrist without you. I wondered how weak, how fragile my life would have been if you didn't choose to listen to my story. I cried for half - an - hour picturizing myself without you.

Just like every bond ours too was unexpected to be connected. I opened up to you unexpectedly when the only person I relied on had left me deserted (what I thought to be with you then)with you and I couldn't clench things tight inside me. I am glad that I did, Now I know whatever happens brings charm later.

From that day on you have been listening to my words no matter how futile they are with inflexible attention and patience. You always had your shoulder supporting my head whenever my eyes were numb or my lips would curl up to make a beautiful curve. I still ponder about the fact that you have not yelled at me being annoyed with my unjustified behavior. You kept me motivated through the days when I had no hope of survival. And now during this lockdown, it's your shoulder, your soothing hugs, that I am missing the most and even more right now.

I am writing this letter to you just to thank you which I know I have done a thousand times. I knew your value and I was always grateful for having you but now as I came across these posts on Instagram I realize how lucky, how fortunate, how blessed I am that the universe made us collide. Not many people have someone like you and maybe that's the reason that someone so optimistic, so motivating and inspiring has given up on life.