A Strange Love

It's the last weekend of this month, July. Anné gets up, Mum shouts. It means we're gonna drive somewhere nevertheless Mom wouldn't wake up us early at a quarter of seven in the morning on weekends. Next, she would yell at me. Annah... I'm up Mom, I yelled before she would. Hehehe...

Good girl, bring her down for breakfast. Yup.

Anné... Annnéééé... Just wake up... I know you're pretending. We're heading out. Washup! (She take off her blanket rapidly.) Really?, Anné asked. I guess so. Mom asked me to bring you down. So what does it's mean? MOOOOMMM... (Anné gets downstairs) are we going anywhere? Good morning, Mom pleads with her. She jumps in joy. I get myself and walk downstairs. Mom, what's up? Why are you rushing? Good morning, she greets me too. Moooo'aaaam, I called. She doesn't answer me. We're having breakfast. Anné... Brushing first. Okay, Mom. She has a little bite on my bread with her unbrushed tooth. Yuck! I've Nauseated Face. Moooo'aaaam, I called. Annaaaaaah... mom yelled and I know this is a warning. Anné ran. I twisted the plate and had her fresh one. Mom where are we goin'? Anything special? "Mmm," Mom hummed. Anne get down fast, mom yelled. "Baaaam" horn of our dad's car. Mom rushed us to get in the car and we get without asking anything. The car inside reminds silence. I just got something is up and I should just be quiet.

Anne is always up on questions no matter where and when we're. She keeps popping up her questions. Mom gazed at her and she shuts, made me smile aloud and I just mocked her. She goes top of her anger and gets calm finally. we moved to the windows on each side. It goes by the way to an hour. I watched many situations on the road which strike me right away. I start to listen to FM and Am. A park appeared with its name board, "The Stygian Park". Full of color in black and there is nothing o rest peacefully and nothing to play. It seems that way from the outside.

We all get off of the car and Dad just waved his hand bye and just left us. Anne is excited and runs into the park through the gateman. Mom got luggage filled with things that are enough for today to spent till the evening. I noticed something is wrong and mom pretends to be happy with us. I just let it be to go through the situation. Mom seems thinking something deeply. Mom... Why his park seems dull and why we're here today? I sounded low. Mom just sees me in my eyes and seems like 'can you please leave me alone?' Mom... Do you want to tell me anything? 'Mmm' Go watch Anne and I want some time. I was super excited when mom said. "Mmm" about she is gonna share me something and she just off me.

I just let her be and went by Anne. She just wandered here and there. As I guessed there is nothing to play and was done in. She is off and comes back to me. I sit on the park benches and watch everyone in the park. She knocks me. We feel board so we go back to mom. Mom was on her phone all the time. She seems so dull. I reached her. Annah went to play with a kid who almost matches her age. Mom, what's goin' on? Why Dad wasn't here with us? and You seem so off! Mom gets teary eyes. I armed her around and asked,

"Mom, had you fought with Daddy? What's up with you today. Why we're here? Mom, this time you can't hide things from me. I have grown up and I can at least understand what's going on. Tell me, Mom." Mom just hugged me, nearly crushed me. Mom, are you crying? my arms clutched her around. Mom, let's talk. Everything has the answer, I pat her back. Mom sees me. I wiped her rolling tears. It feels strange, though makes me good enough to handle my Mom. My little palm on her cheeks seems beautiful. I wonder that moment. Annah...Yes, Mom. What happened? It's up to your age. You can't even sense the pain I have and I never want you to have too, Cries over. Mom, I know, I've nothing to do with your problems, but ain't we are family? We should patch up each other. I didn't learn life that much but now at my age fifteen, I guess I can at least help you through.

Mom wonders at me because I never had opened up this much to anyone in ma family. This is the first time she happened to watch me all grown up. Teary eyes, tear rolling cheeks smile at me happily. It makes me feel strange constantly. A single smile on her face made my day. Our bond has reborn right a the moment. My eyes get wet and my cheeks lead the tears down while I had a running nose. My mom laughs at me and I laugh at her too. We stayed hugging each other. I don't know whether I've helped my Mom to overcome, but I hope I just stayed beside her when she need someone to lean on. Yes, it feels strange, but that feeling had won my emotions effortlessly. Mom helps me wash my face and she does. Mom, I never have been here before. This place seems strange and all alone. Everyone in this park is not enjoying rather than a few. What kinda place is this?

This is a special place constructed especially for loners. For those people who are sad, living all alone, having dark days, having burdens in life, and having heartbreak. This park is not to enjoy. This means to be the place where those broken hearts find solace, peace, and hope for life. Somebody shares their feelings and hard times with strangers in this park. Somebody keeps their friendship from here and somebody would prefer being strangers to each other. And somebody would come here to be the favorite stranger to the loner. They would remind silent listeners. Some writers would come here to get stories. Some young men come here to film their albums. Somebody would come here to just cry aloud while somebody would come here to just watch and stay still.

Anne comes. Mooom... Are you busy? Umm... Nope. How can I help my angel? Mom pleads with her. She is super happy right at the moment. While watching this I was amazed at the power of that single word of love. How magical is it! Anne grabs Mom's hand and pulled her somewhere to go with her. Mom, give me beautiful smile and gets back to Anne. I just wonder like Oh wait, what she just did now? It was so warm. I wonder and wonder again. Was I've grown up? or am I falling for emotions? or am I super sensitive? I shake my head Whatever it takes me up to the sky, and I want that more.

A lady passed me and was smiling at me. It's different from what my mom did before. It had pushed me again in wonder. Do smiles have meaning? I stored it in my questioning mind to find its answer in life. Then I saw a flower bloomed beautifully. Usually, I don't pick flowers but I happened to pick a number of flowers that are beautifully bloomed and smells too good to change the mood. Actually, I'm unaware of picking it myself. Later, I realized I'm doing something which is actually not my habit. Then I look around some people are sitting, and wandering here and there. I tried to observe people and their expressions. I got somebody right and somebody wrong. I guessed to give those flowers to those who are looking broken.

I get myself to wander the park to find people who actually need a little bit happy that I can give enough of. I feel nervous. I find a girl a few years elder than me. I hesitantly get near her. She was about to cry whilst scrolling pictures on her phone. I excused her. She turns to me. Pretending fake smile, tear-filled red eyes, throat full of words unswallowed, baren heart shown in front of me. I get a step back. I start thinking I shouldn't disturb her. Yes, I'm hearing. What do you want? she asked. Oh umm... I'm ... I just... I hesitate. She approached me by touching my shoulder and looks flowers in my hand. Present sense hits me and I just rushed. Uhh... This... This is for you. I just picked flowers to give someone. Right after picking, you're the one who gets my sight and I wanted to give it to you. Can you just get it from me? Isn't it beautifully smiling you? I showed her the flower. She smiles at me which is totally the same as my Mom. I smile too. She picks that flower from my hand, said "The beauty is not in flower here. It's in your warm smile, I guess."

Then I get my way waving her bye. She waves me back with her beautiful smile. She is really pretty when she smiles. I yelled at her "You have a pretty smile". She gets shy and happy. I run happily. Suddenly I just hit someone and we fell. A hand grabbing me. I'm shaking and surprised in fear. I get up by grabbing the hand which is grabbing me. I apologize constantly for few times. That's Ok, the sound of a boy at the age of almost twenties. I'm afraid. I rise my head saying really sorry. That's my fault. Laer, I realize I still holding to the hand. It is so little than mine. It was of a little boy. I feel awkward again for fell over a little boy. I get my needs to him and check whether he gets hurt by me. Thankfully he doesn't. Oh thanks, you didn't get hurt by me. Thankgod. Are you feeling pain, I asked him. He just held me on my shoulders and said miss, "I'm alright. Thanks for your concern, and next time please watch the road while you're walking, running, or jumping whatever." I was amazed. Just what did he say? Was he just mocks me! I bowed to the man and gave them flowers which he picked from the ground while I was falling.

Have a great day, I yelled and get my way back. They crossed me and the man smiles at me like am I looking like a crazy girl. The little one waved me bye. I'm wondering again. This is the ever first time I happened to see beautiful people who have warm smiles over the dark heart inside. Today is totally strange and never stopped making me wonder over everything. My heart is filled with strange things that are so beautiful and rare to feel often. Right now I feel like shouting and screaming in the happiness that could pass all over the area through the wind. I searched my Mom and Anne. I literally squeezed them...

That man and the girl before come together towards us. Then I get to know they're husband and wife, and the little boy is their child. I'm super excited. Feel like karma returns. They greet my Mom and wished her having a good child. Oh, wait it's me they're talking about. They take pictures with us and took their leave. My mom feels happy and I just fly in ecstasy.