Why

Why are all these thoughts stuck in my head,

I really just want to lay down and go to bed,

Why can't I just be normal,

These thoughts are beginning to get horrible,

Why do I want to put a razor on my wrist,

It's getting harder to resist,

Why am I thinking of taking all these pills,

These thoughts are beginning to give me the chills,

Why do I have all this depression, 

FuXX, I just really need to take out some of this aggression, 

All these thoughts make me feel like I'm going to explode,

Why can't I just stay in beast mode,

I keep telling myself "Jess you can't let the devil win",

Oh God, I feel I'm too weak to fight this battle again,

Why does this thing call life feel like a horror movie,

Jesus, these thoughts are conflicting me,

Dear God, please just give me the strength,

To help me win this battle once again.