Thoughts

Deep things growing in this shallow mind,

How long all these emotions am I going to hide?

Should I just let go like every other time, I wonder.

Or should I walk into you and unknowingly commit this blunder?

I think of you in my mind, in whatever I say or do.

Tell me if it is not love then why do I care so much about you?

I look at you, get lost in myself and think how beautiful you are,

You are there, right next to me, but still not with me, why are you so far?

And I know you better than I have known anyone else,

But I can’t force you into loving me, I am not the guy who will cast any spells.

And when I see you smile, I know it is the best thing I have ever seen.

But I can’t hold you up in my arms, and let you feel happier than you have ever been.

You ask me why can I not help my thoughts through,

And tell you how it was always all about you.

You ask me why don’t I let it all out in a roar,

And tell you how much everything about you I adore,

Because lately I have been sitting alone and fighting to make a mark,

These thoughts that confine me to these walls so dark.

These thoughts that teach me to be scared,

they won’t let me speak my heart,

Because these thoughts will always leave me unprepared.