New beginning

I wanted to be the apex of my peers 

I wanted to grab attention 

I wanted my name to be praised 

I'm too proud of myself, 

Ended up with hatred 

I wanted to end my life 

I know that God existed

But never cease any opportunity to approach 

When I'm losing my thoughts 

God has given me the strength to survive 

A day felt like a century 

But I'm through it now 

Starting anew, 

but I don't know how it will end.