IMPOTENT TO RESPIRE

Felt some invisible weight on chest 

That stops me to breathe or do the rest!

I got so much to say but I am weak

Anxiety and stress say "Stop! don't speak!"

600 contacts and no one to say

Stress and thoughts make my hair gray!

Sitting hours and hours, blanks in front

Sitting in the shower and cry, when I am low

But the water disguises my tears in the flow

Not even tired, but I just want to sleep

Drowning in pain, it's getting too deep

At a war in my head everyday

Been fighting and screaming "May-day, may-day"

I wanted to love but I couldn't love, 'cause I didn't love my self

From now on I'm blaming myself

I'm done blaming everyone else

No more blaming everyone else

Struggling to find the balance between

What I want and I need

But it feels like,

Devils been coaching the team

I got so much to say but I am weak

Anxiety and stress say "Stop! don't speak!"