Emotional Intimacy

I have been looking for this word for my whole life. I often have trouble connecting with people. I am only a part introvert and did not have much trouble making friends. However, there was an invisible wall that separated me from the world. Though I loved spending time with them and talking endlessly about nothing, I could not connect with them on an emotional level. This made me feel lonely and contributed to my depression. Of course, I diagnosed myself with assistance from Google. Still, my close friends were a handful. I often had to pretend to my extended circle that everything was dandy. When I first heard this word from a stranger, it immediately struck a chord with me. This is the bond that was missing from my relationship. I do not have to struggle with the lack of words to explain the missing element. Now it would be so much easy even though most people would not understand it. I don't think that matters since It has taken me closer to understanding myself. But I don't know if this would be my last post.