Belief In Me

Anyone And Everyone reading this novel over here would be expecting a Motivational kind about 'THE BELIEF IN ME' but actually it isn't! I don't believe in me anymore. Nor do others have the same old faith put in me anymore. I wasn't always like this, not yesterday not before, it's only my situations that force me to lose belief in myself. I have let people down by my own self. I am at fault so well the others are too. People never encouraged me, so I never could show. People never trusted me, so I could never prove it.

People never stood by me, so I could never fight. People never supported me, so I couldn't change anything or anyone. People never believed me, so I could never do it. There is this saying, "Love In Exchange Of Love" but all my times during this teen phase is only "Hate" or "Ignorance" in exchange for Love and Respect. Maybe, this is the actual reason why I feel super low and the belief in me that I can do it, is somewhere lost. I've witnessed this world's greatest fate disaster, Friends who pretend to care but actually don't, People who pretend to support, but actually plan on dragging you down smoothly. People who never give you a chance to prove your self even after laying down thousands of claims which appear false later, People who never lend an ear to listen and still pretend to understand.

People who do not care when you fall, what only matters to them is that you shouldn't stand high the same way as you used to before. People who smile at your face in the front, but curse you from the back. Disaster isn't always that which harms the life and property of a thousand, even destroying one itself is a Disaster. Destroying one's inner feelings, faith in itself, trust upon others, motivation to do some is so-called being hurt to others, but the one who is experienced or is experiencing knows the actual unrevealed pain behind it. These things value a lot especially when you have to prove yourself to be "Perfect", otherwise without this, you clearly are similar to an empty lunchbox. This world isn't only filled of cruelty itself, it somehow has some goodwill left in people too, which is either shown shining upon someone or is hidden somewhere dark inside. Not everyone are born EVIL, sometimes it is only their circumstances and situations which force them to. I Quote - Katherine Pierce ,"Everything Else You Hate About Yourself..

You'll Still Wake Up With That In The Morning" Unquote. You just don't born hating yourself or others, it's just that the you have had soo enough of this world that it's all letting you down now. "The change in you is inevitable, but you need to grow through the thorns blooming into petals of beautiful kinds not worrying about what others say" is been told to me by someone. But the reality isn't so simple, blooming even for flowers isn't easy, well blooming only happens if the surrounding beside you alloes you to, if they allow you to adjust if only you are able to get things which are very essential for your survival. Only then a flower can last and bloom gleefully with it's head above the ground appealing to the sky. Only if that little bud isn't provided with the water and sunshine it deserves, can it be proud of it's beauty? Could people ever believe that flowers are perfect for any occasion? Could it spread fresh vibes in the good air? It proves itself because it is given a chance to. Not only a non-living thing, but every human needs to be put faith into, a chance to be given, some time to be able to flaunt it's Shine. Only when there is a ray of sunshine caught, can the brightness be seen. I lag them all, and I've even stopped expecting it from people as it creates something similar like expecting bearing Mangoes from a Cactus, which is indeed not possible.